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[It's something, for sure. They haven't been abandoned. This isn't the same situation as before. As far as he can tell, their memories haven't been touched.
But there's still that same deep anxiety, a twisting in the pit of his stomach. This is too close to the worst thing that ever happened to him.]
you promise?
[It's something, for sure. They haven't been abandoned. This isn't the same situation as before. As far as he can tell, their memories haven't been touched.
But there's still that same deep anxiety, a twisting in the pit of his stomach. This is too close to the worst thing that ever happened to him.]
you promise?
[ thank you roxas tells him. thank you, and it is difficult to accept.
for lan wangji, he had never wanted gratitude. he had never wanted the soft press of appreciation. he had only wanted to protect, to let flourish. he had only wanted what provided to any others happiness, not the portent that such wording banked beneath each breath.
once upon a time, someone else had thanked him. and, once upon a time, each parting after such words had led to worse terms the next.
and so, lan wangji does not offer his recognition in words. he holds it within himself, answers as he would with the lowering of eyes. ]
I promise.
[ and that is easier to give. lan wangji is not one who breaks vows, never one to retract each sentiment. ] For as long as you remain there.
for lan wangji, he had never wanted gratitude. he had never wanted the soft press of appreciation. he had only wanted to protect, to let flourish. he had only wanted what provided to any others happiness, not the portent that such wording banked beneath each breath.
once upon a time, someone else had thanked him. and, once upon a time, each parting after such words had led to worse terms the next.
and so, lan wangji does not offer his recognition in words. he holds it within himself, answers as he would with the lowering of eyes. ]
I promise.
[ and that is easier to give. lan wangji is not one who breaks vows, never one to retract each sentiment. ] For as long as you remain there.
[It's easy to say. Possibly harder to do, depending what happens. They don't know how this happened and they don't know how to stop it and they don't know what will happen next. Roxas could slip into the falseness of the simulation just like that and reject and attempt to bring him out of it; that had happened once before, after all.
But it's not nothing. A light in the darkness, an anchor to what's real. Something to hold onto when the terror threatens to overtake him.
He can't put what it means to him in words, so he doesn't try.]
okay.
But it's not nothing. A light in the darkness, an anchor to what's real. Something to hold onto when the terror threatens to overtake him.
He can't put what it means to him in words, so he doesn't try.]
okay.
[ are not most things? but, there is a certain determination in what lan wangji commits to, a certain persistence. in the cloud recesses, it is forbidden to lie. and though lan wangji is far from what it is he would call home, there are some guiding principles that he continues to abide to. and this rule -- of their many rules --, is one.
but roxas need not say anything for him to understand. he knows, because he too is not prone to speak unless he possesses something to say. or, if the words are too difficult to grasp, he waits. ]
How have you been passing time?
[ what good things is implied. it is a slight distraction, a movement from their previous topic of discussion. sometimes just going through the motions of the day, no matter how grim it appeared, made things more bearable. ]
but roxas need not say anything for him to understand. he knows, because he too is not prone to speak unless he possesses something to say. or, if the words are too difficult to grasp, he waits. ]
How have you been passing time?
[ what good things is implied. it is a slight distraction, a movement from their previous topic of discussion. sometimes just going through the motions of the day, no matter how grim it appeared, made things more bearable. ]
[It's a normal question, one that might be asked on any normal day. But nothing about this is normal, even considering their abnormal presence in this world, and they both know it.]
i don't know. not much.
trying to figure out what was going on, or a way back.
for all the good that'll do now.
[And he doesn't have a good answer. This isn't the more helpless Roxas has ever been, but he's so much more aware of it now.]
i don't know. not much.
trying to figure out what was going on, or a way back.
for all the good that'll do now.
[And he doesn't have a good answer. This isn't the more helpless Roxas has ever been, but he's so much more aware of it now.]
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